Retention. Accumulation. Obstruction. Stagnation. Decay.
Silence. Observation. Recognition. Identification.
Motion. Energy. Progression.
My vision of life? Hmm. That’s going to require some reflection.
I can quickly state my priorities. Travel. Motorcycle. Experiences. Friendship. Love.
The hair I had grown to be so lovely was thinning from the friction of a helmet and the pull of a rubber band. It tangled in the breeze and broke off as I brushed out the knots. It was a hassle. The helmet is a priority. The hair had to go.
A dog and household items made any space where I paid rent feel like home, so I worked to pay to house my friend and these trinkets where I slept. The dog died. The work became monotonous. After an evaluation of needs, I realized that stagnation was causing decay. The value of motion and energy is greater than comfort. I sold my belongings.
Without a companion or belongings, I have no use for a permanent address. I am letting go of that as well.
I feel like I’ve removed some key obstructions. Energy is already flowing more rapidly. I am moving toward something. It’ll only be clear in hindsight.
My vision of life:
I want to radiate the kind of love that asks challenging questions, observes the answers and works toward solutions. I want people I meet to receive it and shine that love onward. I want the ones who have been convinced that they are unworthy of tenderness and self care to be reminded of their humanity. I want to help them heal and encourage them to be a resource for others. I give what I need. I teach the lessons I need to learn. I don’t know exactly what this will look like, but it’s what I feel like I’ve been practicing in my cab with strangers who don’t expect it and with friends.